For as long as I've been alive, I've loved to plan every single part of my life. When my birthday's would come around I'd grab my color pencils and write out everything I wanted to have at my party. Streamers, a big cake, some kind of piñata, and of course many extravagant games. For my 16th birthday, I wanted a surprise party so I gave my mom times where I would for sure be free to be surprised... Crazy much? She reminded me that there is absolutely no way to surprise me if I'm trying to plan my own surprise part. Obviously my 16 year old self had A LOT to learn about micro managing her life. My friends did some how surprise me at my favorite Mexican restaurant and I shockingly had no idea. (Seriously, I still rarely get surprised because I'm way to nosy).
This story is something I look back on to 1) get a good laugh and 2) see how much I've grown. And man have I grown! However, this is something I struggle with to this day. Having Big Dreams, and not knowing the steps to get to those dreams. If there is one phrase that has been constantly popping up in my life is that "All big things, start will small beginnings". SHOCKER, we don't all accomplish our dreams over night, in one month, or even in a year. Unless of course you win the lottery but thats another story. God has given me such a passion for creating & designing and all I want to do is live out my passions. Can I get an Amen? But how do I get there? How in the world do I begin to accomplish these big dreams... My answer, small steps.
"Do not despise these small beginnings" - Zechariah 4:10
Have you ever heard of any human winning a marathon with little or no training? Um, no of course not. You don't just go and run and win a marathon on your first try. You must train. Begin small.. 1 mile, 10 miles, 20 miles, then finally 26 miles. The same goes with your BIG dreams. Ask yourself the question: What do I want to do with my life? Do I want to serve others? Inspire others? Both?!
I must choose to start at the beginning and ask the easy questions. Personally I like immediate success and response for all the effort I put into my dreams. And if we are being real here, I'd really like for them to just fall in my lap and be like "Here yah go Tess". Thankfully God is a lot more patient. He has a lot better timing. He even has a much bigger plan, bigger than anything I could ever imagine. And he wants us to be apart of it.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us... - Hebrews 12:1
Chasing my dreams means that I have to run the race. It entails that I must leave behind my sin, and my desires to measure up. There is no room to measure success when you're following the Messiah. In order to run this race well, I need to be prepared - I need to drink from the fountain of living water and hunger for the word of God. Not every so often, but every single day. Running this race isn't the same as signing up for the occasional 5k, it's life long. You will endure very rough, hard paths. You will sometimes be running up to the mountain and then down to the valley. As I pursue my dreams, as I am running the race I must remember that each step is leading me to the big dream. Funny thing is, I'm not sure what that dream consists of. I do, however, know the God who has prepared it for me.
So Friend, stop trying to have it all figured out and start running the race. Don't worry about what everyone else's race looks like, just run yours. Take it step by step, breathe in and breathe out. Your story has already been written, now go live it.