For the next few weeks, I'm going to be posting a blog each week in a series called "You Are". Each week there will be a word behind that phrase. This week is You Are: Worthy. Last year I finished out my undergraduate years and walked across a stage to get something I never thought I could achieve, a college degree. See growing up I was an overactive child like I hated nap time in kindergarten because I knew I could be playing or running or doing anything else but trying to rest. I'm still like that little girl sometimes, I have to force myself to rest. Anyways, I also had a terrible speech impediment. Not to mention I liked to talk really, really fast so that didn't help my case either. So imagine me as the over-active, hyper, hard to understand the child that would've got on your nerves at a restaurant. Years go by and I struggle to pay attention in certain classes in elementary school, one faculty member even told my mom I wouldn't amount to anything, ouch. Needless to say, going into Junior high I didn't have a lot of confidence in school. And I gained some confidence in taking on leadership roles and extracurricular activities and I learned that you don't have to just be good at math to be considered smart. Continuing on into high school I found a love for technology, basketball, journalism, design, and creativity. I found my niche. However, I still had that doubt creep in that I wasn't smart enough to reach my goals, I wasn't worthy of success. Instead of fighting that battle, I started to learn how to be busy. Busyness is my specialty. I love to have something to do, to be needed by other people and to be in control of the things in my life. That craving for worth came through what I did or really "how busy I was". That then followed me into college. I jumped into college ministry and volunteer work and college organizations. I created the busyness and I felt worthy. I think in the social media filled world we live in today it's easy to seek to find worth in what we do. Isn't that what we are taught from an early age? Do big things and you will be great, right?
For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. - Ephesians 2:10
I love how the author of Ephesians writes this. It's a comforting yet hard statement for me to hold on to. God claimed me worthy because he created me. I'm worthy because I am his. I don't have to battle and fight and strive to find worth in what I do. God dictates my life, therefore, he already knows what is prepared for me to accomplish and do.
Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. - Psalms 139:16
God has written my days in his book. God has written your days in his book. He knows them front and back. You don't have to sit and worry about the future, he knows it.
Stop thinking you have to work for your worth. Your worth in Jesus can't be earned. Say it with me. "My worth can not be earned". You can look at the world's standards of worthiness and see that they measure worthiness by works. Don't fall into the trap I've caught myself in one too many times. Promise to stay rest assured that you don't have to prove that you are worthy. The creator of the world has claimed that over you as his child.
He saved us, not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to his own mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit. - Titus 3:5
What I verse that can give so much freedom. God saved us anyway. Not because we were worthy of it but because he claimed us to be. Not because we worked hard enough for it but because of his mercy and grace for us. We deserve nothing, but he gave us everything. He gave us worth.
The next time you start to seek out worth in what you do. Or you get caught up seeking busyness to feel worthy, remember this: You are already worthy. Who are you trying to prove your worth to? Is it, Your parents, a coach, your boyfriend/girlfriend, or maybe yourself? Finding out who you are trying to prove worthiness to will help you identify how to instead seek that worth from God.
Friend, you have worth apart from what you have accomplished or will accomplish. You are worthy.